The House of Payne

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 07:12:12 GMT

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 05:34:05 GMT

I found a quote I like for some reason in a book that I loved:
"And therefore it seems (though rarely) that love can find entrance not only into an open heart, but also into a heart well fortified, if watch not be well kept."
Francis Bacon
You should all read The Girl in Times Square. Paullina Simons

Just a bit of love and understanding is all that we need

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 12:12:27 GMT

I try.
According to you I fail.
A break in composure towards you.
But if you really stopped to look past the "bitch", you might see what's underneath.
You might see how much grace is given to you.
You might see words unspoken and frustrations dealt with.
You might see a heart eventually softened only to be slapped again and again.
When will you open your eyes.
Not eveything is about you.
But then again.
Not everything is about me.
I will continue to stand here taking it from you.
Sometimes I will ignore it.
Sometimes I will vent to a friend or two.
Sometimes I will say what I really think as politely as I can manage.
But mostly, I will wish that you would notice that I try and try yourself.
Want to know who 'you' are?
Who is this written for?
This is for anyone who has ever had someone be mean to them or been mean to someone else.
I think you'll find this is you.

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 12:48:24 GMT

http://pics.livejournal.com/genuine_gem/gallery/0000172r
Just go look at that.
And see what I've been up to.

blessed be the name of the Lord

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 11:53:44 GMT

why Lord

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 08:40:50 GMT

Everyone needs compassion
Love that’s never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

Shine Your light and let the whole world see
We’re singing
For the glory of the risen King

My Song:

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 01:36:37 GMT

(Sing to the tune of the banana boat add)
It's very curvy.
Banana Back
It's a slippery slope.
Banana Back.
It lasts for ever and ever and ever
do do do do do do
Banana Back!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 08:49:36 GMT

Girls are so mean.
Enough is enough already.
I'm honestly trying here.
I can't change the past, but I sure as hell am trying to change in the present.
Can't you see that?

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 02:39:10 GMT

It's hard to describe.
It's not that prince charming saved the damsel in distress.
He's not a prince, and damsels in distress have to learn that princes aren't what save them.
It's those days when you're zoned out and it still just works. No offence taken if you're quiet. Never mind if you stress out. Nervous? Stupid comments are my middle name.
Just hold my hand, I understand.

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 12:34:52 GMT

Close two doors in one week, open three windows the next. The Lord provides.

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 11:55:14 GMT

Monday: Two Jobs
Fridays: Zero jobs
What timing.

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 12:28:56 GMT

Three of my favourite boys are all overseas.
How lame.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 09:12:17 GMT

not only do i have an exam tomorrow, but i've either been half asleep or throwing up all day
crap

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 08:16:52 GMT

Time just passes differently.

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 03:29:33 GMT

Bite has come to crunch.
Push has come to shove.
Can't think of anything else to describe the fact that this work is upon me and I'm screwed.
My room is mess.
My brain is full of cobwebs and my stomach hurts.
I can't focus for more than about the 1min it took to write this lj.

Random Thoughts:

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 12:51:14 GMT

Song: I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of something new
'Cause I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of what you're turning into
I've always wanted a puppy. A little cute one that follows you round and is soft and cuddly.
I want to go horse riding again. And draw and read.
I can't believe I have like 2 weeks left of first year. What a year. Everything is so different to this time last year. And there's so much to get done still!
Bring on 2007. I'm pumped.
Thanks be to God and to him be the glory.

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 13:00:32 GMT

Watch him now, here he comes!
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus, but he talks like a gentlemen, just like you imagined when you were young.

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 13:13:26 GMT

Your heart is pounding right out of your chest, are you alright?
You're shaking like a leaf, are you sure you're alright?
What a week.
What am I going to do with you gemma?

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 00:25:28 GMT

6 months ago I would've.
But this time I didn't.
What now?

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 04:22:10 GMT

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 04:56:18 GMT

Essays Done.
Stress? What stress? Gone.
yay.

BLAH

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 13:09:08 GMT

1. I live in a crazy house, full of crazy people, crazy pets and crazy computers which choose to die and not be fixed at the worst possible moment and take forever to reinstall itunes and take up peoples whole nights.
2. Avril and cups of tea seem like a good idea.
3. Cars like mine should not be driven in the m5 in really bad traffic or else they will continuously stall and generally cause stress.
4. My scalp and a lot of my body is a tiny bit sunburnt despite wearing so much sunscreen that I looked like a ghost, so I feel constantly hot and bothered and a little bit like I have sun stroke.
5. I have so much work to do it's not even funny.
7. Retail therapy does not have a lasting effect.
8. Breathe in.
9. Breathe out.

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 12:15:18 GMT

Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride
A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me
Let's not pretend we all didn't love Aladdin.
I know I did.
Still do.
I heard this song playing in woollies tonight.

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 07:03:22 GMT

Decision making sucks.
So many good points and so many bad.
AHHHHHH.
God's in control.

MISS VANITY

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 13:03:55 GMT

Calls at 3am.
Stands you up again.
Has ten thousand friends.
It's just the way she is.
Never waits in line.
Never has the time.
Makes you lose your mind.
That's just the way she is.
You'll never be what she needs.
She'll always leave with your sanity.
She'll never do what you want her to.
You know it's true.
Miss Vanity.
Knows just what to say.
To all the heart she plays.
We love her anyway.
Thats just the way she is.
She'll never do what you want her to.
You know it's true.
Miss Vanity.
That's just the way she is.